The weather has changed from hot and humid to breezy and cool. It’s a nice change but hopefully a happy medium will develop in the next few days. Work’s great – I’m still learning this new program and my boss – well I really can’t say enough nice things about her. What a difference from what I was used to.

I remember being called into the conference room and being quizzed on something I may or may not have done. The purpose of the quiz was to humiliate or shame you into admitting you made a mistake even though the person berating you had done the very same thing, or something very similiar just days previous to that. There were so many times I felt like a rat in a cage because no matter what answer you had – it was going to be the wrong one.

For many years I felt horrible and would appologise profusely. In the end though I began to realize they were bullies, but made excuses to myself about why they would do that. Now that I’m away from it I can see there were no good reasons for what they did and deep down they had to have known as well. It doesn’t matter I guess. I am gone from there and in a much healther place and never again will I allow myself to endure such awful treatment from anyone.

I called Jeren today. He survived his birthday just fine, but didn’t offer any details. I think that’s for the best – there are some things a mom probably doesn’t want to know. I was 21 once… I know what that’s about.

Amelia fell off her horse today. My first instinct was to call her and make sure everything was okay, but Ira told me to let it go. He doesn’t want her to be afraid to be back on the horse again. It’s tough… she’s only seven years old and still a baby… at least to me anyway.

I texted Karisa today  – we’re meeting for lunch on Thursday. Yay. I miss her and Amelia is going to be so excited to see her too. I can’t wait to tell her.

Better get to bed. Morning sure does come early around here.